I PROMISE YOU.

There's definitely no doubt about it.

I love being crazy.

I wouldn't have it any other way.

zZzZZz*

I think that bitch that was hibernating is FINALLY waking up after soo many months. And so far, things seem real good.

this is ALL I need.

Is this so hard to find?

I don't think so.

I feel like I'm getting real close to it.

Dear Summer,

I KNOW YOU GUNNA MISS ME!!

Sincerely,

Me.

I'M HERE!

Is it true?

Stimulate my heart, surrender my mind

Look at to my eyes and forever you'll find

A bad girl turned good, how could it be true?

And all through my pain how could it be you?

How could it be new?

How could it be my cheating ways is through?

How could it be him in pursuit, about the get a white suit

About to get a night job just to keep my mind grounded in you?

And that jazz

What else can make a bitch spend all her cash

I'm a chick with a face

A chick with a little skinny waist

A chick with a mind to match my nice taste

Plus I got the mind to snatch you like weight

Why you wanna tie me up like Rick James

Reverse the pros

As long as I got them little high heels on

It's on

This is something I never wanted

But since I met you I've been on it

I think about you all the time

Can't get you off my mind

I know this can't be true

But baby it must be true

Thinking of going all the way

I wanna show you but I'm afraid

I know you say it's all of me

Maybe tonight I'll let you see

I know this can't be true

But baby it must be true

Don't wanna give into you so easily

But I can't even fight it, you make me so weak

And I can't understand what you're doing to me

But I like it

I heard you whisper something to me

Hold me close now baby don't leave

Emotions taking over

Something's controlling me

I know this can't be tre

But baby it must be true

What am I feeling?

It's getting stronger

And I can't hold it back for much longer

Although we try to be cool, it's all because of you.

I know this can't be true

But baby it must be true

Don't wanna give into you so easily

But I can't even fight it, you make me so weak

And I can't understand what you doing to me

But I like it

Now in a minute, Ima have to check myself into this psycho

I'm going crazy

I don't know what I'm fighting for

See it's too easy to run from this

And my mind saying I can't really fuck with this

Try to resist but every passion kiss, blow my mind like a terrorist

You can be mine on some forever shit

I'm a treat believe me

Try to be tough but the look on your face it's so delicate

It's something you do when you got me in trance

You got me running and doing shit I ain't used to doing

Thinking bout a chance, maybe a slow dance

Maybe we hold hands, fur coats and France

Go diving on beaches with white diamonds in the sand

Then we hand gliding over Cannes

And then you can be my number one fan

I could be your love in the club for as long as this song last

The way you make me feel got me goin' crazy

Tell me what you doing tonight

I'll be there right away

Take a ride with you all day

You know I'm gonna give you my love

Boy I so glad that you're soon to be mine

Do you wanna spend some time with me?

Don't wanna give into you so easily

But I can't even fight it

You make me so weak

And I can't understand what you're doing to me

But I like it

I like it

I like it.

Would You Mind?

Baby would you mind touching me

Ever so slowly

You're making me quiver

Baby would you mind undressing me

Making me feel sexy

While in the moment

'Cause I'm gonna

Bathe you, play with you, rub you, caress you

Tell how much I've missed you

I just wanna

Touch you, tease you, lick you, please you

Love you, hold you, make love to you

And I'm gonna

Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you

Feel you deep inside me ooh

I just wanna

Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you

Feel you, make you come, too

Baby would you mind kissing me

All over my body

You missed a spot there

Baby would you mind tasting me

It's making me all juicy

Feeling your lips on mine

'Cause I'm gonna
Bathe you, play with you, rub you, caress you
Tell how much I've missed you
I just wanna
Touch you, tease you, lick you, please you
Love you, hold you, make love to you
And I'm gonna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you
Feel you deep inside me ooh
I just wanna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you
Feel you, make you come, too

Baby would you mind coming inside of me

Letting your juces free

Deep in my passion

'Cause I'm gonna
Bathe you, play with you, rub you, caress you
Tell how much I've missed you
I just wanna
Touch you, tease you, lick you, please you
Love you, hold you, make love to you
And I'm gonna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you
Feel you deep inside me ooh
I just wanna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you
Feel you, make you come, too.

b e m y f r i e n d .

Help

I have done it again

I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today

And the worst part is there's no one else to tell

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Ouch

I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found

Yeah I think that I might break

I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me.

I got five on it.

Are you the fire to my blunt?

s a y .

Say that you want me

Say that you'll never leave me

You gotta tell me you need me

Don't let them take your love away

Some say that I am a fool to love you

And some say that I am too dumb to know what's right for me

But only I can live my life, and only I can fill my heartache

I never claim to know everything but I know when your loves away

I can't sleep and I can't eat and I can't live and I can't breathe

So don't make a fool of me, just love me

Say that you want me
Say that you'll never leave me
You gotta tell me you need me
Don't let them take your love away

Now they say that me loving you will hurt me

And they say it's a matter of time before you break my heart

But even when we're far apart

I always feel that you are with me

I hope and pray almost everyday that our love never goes away

Cuz I can't see where I would be without your love all over me

So don't make a fool of me, just love me and say

Say that you want me
Say that you'll never leave me
You gotta tell me you need me
Don't let them take your love away

Baby you're all

All that I need

Need in my life

Right here with me

Say that you want me
Say that you'll never leave me
You gotta tell me you need me
Don't let them take your love away

RAINONME.

I'm so tired of the rain

In my life

And I'm so tired of the strain

And I ain't gon lie bcause

Sometimes I can't sleep at night and

This here just don't seem right and

Sometimes I just wonder why I

Almost let my life go by.

I should've . .

I should've lied

I should've cheated

I should've went out to the club

I should've done it

Maybe I shouldn't have give away all my love

I should've played you

I should've cheated.

'Penny For Your Thoughts'

Can someone tell me where I can find someone like this??

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mn1qxrM1XY0

I'm gone. Goodbye.

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high

It never would've worked out right

We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come here to hold you

Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder

But I know that you'll find another

That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss

Then we could feel the poison set in

Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so

I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone.

x 3 3 .

I got a thing for the kid . . .

L I F E .

First off, it's mine. Thank You to my parents for making me, but I'm old enough to say IT'S MINE. I've gone through some of the worst struggles ever known to people who know me, but I always made it through; with a smile. I thought the older I became, the easier things would've gotten. I thought maybe God would've given me a break, but apparently, I was wrong. Haven't I learned from my mistakes? Haven't I paid my dues? A smile can go a long way some say. I've had people pick fights with me because they feel like I don't have any kind of trouble in the world just because my smile is so big. Sorry, I was blessed with a smile to light up a room. The pain I've dealt with, I just learned to hide it, but when will I be able to say the smile is real? My tears have become my best friend over the past 10 years, I guess they never want to leave my side. What good friends they are. My best friend tells me things happen to the best of us, I'm glad to know I'm one of the best, but I would be willing to let things happen to someone else for a change. I got teased with the good life for awhile and now I'm back to feeling down and depressed all the time. The suicidal thoughts are no longer there, but I wish I knew how to get rid of this pain.

-when Life gives you lemons, make lemonade, right?

B U T . .

-what if Life only gave me one lemon, what am I suppose to do with that?? Squeeze it into a can of Pepsi??

I just want things to finally be set on track, finally get better, I just want my life to not be falling off sometimes. Do I want it to be perfect? No. But it still doesn't mean it can't get better.

I ' L L W A I T .

Should everyone take risks?

I told a close friend of mine today that there is no such thing as a perfect boyfriend, nor a perfect fck buddy. Life comes at you in crazy ways & even though it might not be EXACTLY what you want but at times you should go for it, see how great or worse the outcome turns out to be. Just TAKE THE RISK, see what happens. What if it means having that excrutiating feeling in your body? The most horrible feeling you can ever feel, next to death? What if it means starting your life over? Was your past worth your present? Will your present be worth your future? Is it worth thinking so much about something that change your life? Would it be worth taking the risk? Whoever said Life was easy, must've never tried to be loved. Is it because they never took a risk?

f r e s h l y , n e w .

I haven't blogged since the month of June & it's now September *lol* but I reread all of my old blogs & I think I want to start up on it again. Let's see if any new ones will be about heartbreaks . .