I should've . .

I should've lied

I should've cheated

I should've went out to the club

I should've done it

Maybe I shouldn't have give away all my love

I should've played you

I should've cheated.

'Penny For Your Thoughts'

Can someone tell me where I can find someone like this??

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mn1qxrM1XY0

I'm gone. Goodbye.

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high

It never would've worked out right

We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come here to hold you

Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder

But I know that you'll find another

That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss

Then we could feel the poison set in

Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so

I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone.

x 3 3 .

I got a thing for the kid . . .

L I F E .

First off, it's mine. Thank You to my parents for making me, but I'm old enough to say IT'S MINE. I've gone through some of the worst struggles ever known to people who know me, but I always made it through; with a smile. I thought the older I became, the easier things would've gotten. I thought maybe God would've given me a break, but apparently, I was wrong. Haven't I learned from my mistakes? Haven't I paid my dues? A smile can go a long way some say. I've had people pick fights with me because they feel like I don't have any kind of trouble in the world just because my smile is so big. Sorry, I was blessed with a smile to light up a room. The pain I've dealt with, I just learned to hide it, but when will I be able to say the smile is real? My tears have become my best friend over the past 10 years, I guess they never want to leave my side. What good friends they are. My best friend tells me things happen to the best of us, I'm glad to know I'm one of the best, but I would be willing to let things happen to someone else for a change. I got teased with the good life for awhile and now I'm back to feeling down and depressed all the time. The suicidal thoughts are no longer there, but I wish I knew how to get rid of this pain.

-when Life gives you lemons, make lemonade, right?

B U T . .

-what if Life only gave me one lemon, what am I suppose to do with that?? Squeeze it into a can of Pepsi??

I just want things to finally be set on track, finally get better, I just want my life to not be falling off sometimes. Do I want it to be perfect? No. But it still doesn't mean it can't get better.

I ' L L W A I T .

Should everyone take risks?

I told a close friend of mine today that there is no such thing as a perfect boyfriend, nor a perfect fck buddy. Life comes at you in crazy ways & even though it might not be EXACTLY what you want but at times you should go for it, see how great or worse the outcome turns out to be. Just TAKE THE RISK, see what happens. What if it means having that excrutiating feeling in your body? The most horrible feeling you can ever feel, next to death? What if it means starting your life over? Was your past worth your present? Will your present be worth your future? Is it worth thinking so much about something that change your life? Would it be worth taking the risk? Whoever said Life was easy, must've never tried to be loved. Is it because they never took a risk?

f r e s h l y , n e w .

I haven't blogged since the month of June & it's now September *lol* but I reread all of my old blogs & I think I want to start up on it again. Let's see if any new ones will be about heartbreaks . .