convo w| *HiM about my blogs

[HiM]: hows ur blogging going?

[ME]: Going better now that I have a laptop and don't gotta do it thru my phone

[HiM]: is it addicting as people say it is?

[ME]: It can vary on some people cuz I know some people use that and write about their whole day like from the moment they wake up to the minute they go to bed, I on the other hand write about my feelings, usually love stuff and I do love writing there but I guess its harder for me to be addicted to it since I gotta rearrange my words so it won't be so much of an essay but a lil poem

[HiM]: is it easy for u write about love stuff?

[ME]: Umm yeah cuz I can write about it when I'm pissed off cuz of it or when I'm happy there's a never a time where I'm not feeling some type of way bcuz of love so I guess it is

[HiM]: do u ever question yaself on why its easy to write about it but its hard to find it?

[ME]: I know why

[HiM]: ....im waiting

[ME]: Well u can write about wat u want, what ure looking for, how u r, how u see love, but its like there's a love store where u can pick out that perfect person

[HiM]: hmm interesting

[ME]: Its not like there's a love store**

[HiM]: lolol
[HiM]: oh shyt, i dead ass believed there was a love store
[HiM]: lol
[HiM]: i went along wit the reading
[HiM]: :-p

[ME]: So since there's no love store, you can write about that perfect, dream girl/guy that people want
[ME]: Lol I wish there was

[HiM]: there's no such thing as perfect

[ME]: Exactly so that's why its easier to write about it
[ME]: Its like a dream

[HiM]: did u post up what ur mr.right would be like?

[ME]: Yea in my latest one I did

[HiM]: imma have to check dat out to see wut exactly it is dat would turn a heartless princess into a heartful queen

[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: lol

[ME]: Lemme know wat u think :)

[HiM]: sure thing
[HiM]: ok expect me to ask questions as im reading...=)

[ME]: Lol ok

[HiM]: 1st question
[HiM]: lol

[ME]: Yes
[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: umm....everyone has flaws, do u really think its a good idea to accept flaws rather than help change dem?
[HiM]: flaws bring pain,hurt,tears,etc.....

[ME]: A lot of people have a lot of flaws, if I like someone, its despite their flaws, if I change the flaws, then they're not really the person I was attracted to
[ME]: I would change them in a way where I'm not changing the person but making it better for a relationship

[HiM]: not necassarily, cuz u could be attracted to someone and see deep down inside dat dey could be a betta person than who dey are

[ME]: Well what would u consider a flaw
[ME]: Here's an ex I can kinda use
[ME]: The last guy I was with was in a gang, I despiseeee gangs and I think lower of guys who are in gangs so that was a flaw he had but seeing that really was a big part of him, I eventually accepted it

[HiM]: -_-

[ME]: He thought one of my flaws were smoking weed so he told me he aint want me to stop but not to do it in front of him

[HiM]: ok but what happens when those flaws start to affect da relationship?
[HiM]: for example...god forbid u get into problems cuz of his gang stuff

[ME]: Like wat kind of probs

[HiM]: or what if u wit someone dat has a flaw of lying too much? how do u work wit that?

[ME]: That's different cuz I wouldn't wanna be wit someone who's flaw is lying too much

[HiM]: that was my ex's flaw :-(
[HiM]: i use to bag her lying and keepin shyt from me a lot
[HiM]: WHERE ALL DA GOOD GIRLS AT?
[HiM]: lol
[HiM]: j/k

[ME]: Although I guess that was my other ex's flaw and that was worse cuz everytime he spoke, I thought he was lying and that's what made me think even worse shyt and that's suttin u can't really fix, that's something they gotta fix on their own if they see its hurting you
[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: i guess im da type of person dat would accept flaws, but not to a point where its affecting da relationship

[ME]: Like u said no ones perfect so no matter wat u gunna have to accept another persons flaw

[HiM]: some flaws
[HiM]: not all
[HiM]: =)
[HiM]: next subject....
[HiM]: u promise not to cheat, even with urself.....?

[ME]: Lol
[ME]: No not all
[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: does dat mean no masturbation for u lol?
[HiM]: i dont get it

[ME]: Lmao yes

[HiM]: lol

[ME]: Ima tryna show my "perfect guy" that I'm all his and everything that's mine is his, so ima keep my hands to myself so that when he "comes to get what's his" it'll feel better since it was last touched by him

[HiM]: omgoodness

[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: but what if it turns him on to watch u touch yaself? lol

[ME]: Then its acceptable
[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: :-) ok
[HiM]: still analyzin
[HiM]: ok done

[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: i continued skimming through ya blog and itz crazy how last month u was postin stuff about ur hubby
[HiM]: and now itz gone
[HiM]: =/

[ME]: Yupp

[HiM]: im intrigued by ur mentality and i feel like der's so much i can learn and share wit u when it comes to talkin bout da infamous love subject
[HiM]: :-)

[ME]: Just so you know ... I'm gunna blog our "love" convo :)
[ME]: But don't worry I won't use your real name

[HiM]: lmao
[HiM]: yay i secretly made da blog

[ME]: Lmao

Give me my wants & I'll give you my promises.

I want you to always be there.

I promise to always be there for you.

I want you to always make me smile.

I promise to do my best to get you to smile.

I want you to look into my eyes and show me how much you care.

I promise to never stop gazing into your eyes, I'll show everyone how much I care.

I want you to accept all my flaws and see them as greatness.

I promise to show you the greatest and love your flaws.

I want you to never lie, even if it hurts.

I promise to never make it hurt.

I want you to never cheat.

I promise to never cheat, even if it's with myself.

I want you to enjoy my company.

I promise to only share mine.

I want you to laugh at my most stupidest things.

I promise to never think stupid thoughts.

I want you to make me feel as the most happiest girl in the world.

I promise to make you feel like the happiest guy in the world, just for having me.

I want you to tell me it's ok when I feel down.

I promise I'll never feel down because of you.

I want you to not make me your whole world but just your favorite part.

I promise you'll be my whole world.

I want you to be there for me in sickness and in health.

I promise to be the best nurse you've ever had.

I want you to hold my hand outside, even if it's to the corner store.

I promise I'll pretend you're holding my heart.

I want you to be my other half.

I promise you'll make me whole.

I want you to lay beside me, just lay beside me.

I promise I'll cherish every second while you lay next to me.

I want you to appreciate every second spent together.

I promise I'll love every second with you.

I want you to tell me I'm beautiful, on my worst days.

I promise to always stay beautiful just for you.

I want you to never break my heart.

I promise to give you my heart as long as you don't break it.

I want you to be my Prince.

I promise to be your Princess, but treat you like a King.

I want you to never leave my side.

I promise to stay by your side, even when I'm not physically there.

I want you to be all mine.

I promise I'll be all yours.

I want you to love me.

I promise to love you like no other.

what I want, seems like a dream; I hope I never wake up from it, if it can really be this PERFECT.

myheartBLEDS.

No one has ever cut me deep like you did. I wish I never let you get so close to me. Over and over again, my heart bleds for you. Everytime I looked into your eyes, all I saw was safiness, protection, warmth, a best friend, a lover, my LIFETIMEPARTNER. I was healed, but I don't blame you for the pain, I have only myself to blame. I let my wounded heart be reopened, to be hurt even more. Ashamed is all I feel. My purpose for living? To be loved & to give love. That's all I want. And I promise you, I won't ask for anything more.

dontworry; I'll pick up the broken pieces*

now what?

FOR SALE!

I always said "if my heart gets broken, I'm not going to bother with it anymore, as a matter of fact, I'm not even going to want it anymore"





any takers?

fuckyouCUPID.

you have never been on my side. did you always miss bcause you aimed at someone else? or are you really just a huge SCREWUP?






but I went for it anyway. I saw him and decided to just GIVEITASHOT.






and I can't believe how hurt I felt in such a SHORTPERIODOFTIME.






can things GETBETTER?

ONLYTIMECANTELL

feliz un mes

I decided to let him in MYWORLD;MYLIFE;butmostimportantlyMYHEART. Everyday that goes by, I think he's too good to be true, or maybe I'm not good enough for him. But to truly be happy in life, you have to just suck it up and live every second. And so far, there are no regrets. He's the reason for the smile on my face, for my heart skipping a beat. He's the reason I can love again.





*I never understood before, I never knew what love was for, my heart was broke, my head was sore, what a feeling, I didn't believe in destiny, I look up and you're standing next to me, what a feeling, I never saw it happening, I'd given up, I'd given in, I just couldn't take the hurt again, I didn't have the strength to find, what a feeling, let the rain fall, I don't care, I'm yours and suddenly you're mine and it's brighter than sunshine, love will remain a mystery, give me your hand and you will see, your heart is keeping in time in with me*