I PROMISE YOU.

There's definitely no doubt about it.

I love being crazy.

I wouldn't have it any other way.

zZzZZz*

I think that bitch that was hibernating is FINALLY waking up after soo many months. And so far, things seem real good.

this is ALL I need.

Is this so hard to find?

I don't think so.

I feel like I'm getting real close to it.

Dear Summer,

I KNOW YOU GUNNA MISS ME!!

Sincerely,

Me.

I'M HERE!

Is it true?

Stimulate my heart, surrender my mind

Look at to my eyes and forever you'll find

A bad girl turned good, how could it be true?

And all through my pain how could it be you?

How could it be new?

How could it be my cheating ways is through?

How could it be him in pursuit, about the get a white suit

About to get a night job just to keep my mind grounded in you?

And that jazz

What else can make a bitch spend all her cash

I'm a chick with a face

A chick with a little skinny waist

A chick with a mind to match my nice taste

Plus I got the mind to snatch you like weight

Why you wanna tie me up like Rick James

Reverse the pros

As long as I got them little high heels on

It's on

This is something I never wanted

But since I met you I've been on it

I think about you all the time

Can't get you off my mind

I know this can't be true

But baby it must be true

Thinking of going all the way

I wanna show you but I'm afraid

I know you say it's all of me

Maybe tonight I'll let you see

I know this can't be true

But baby it must be true

Don't wanna give into you so easily

But I can't even fight it, you make me so weak

And I can't understand what you're doing to me

But I like it

I heard you whisper something to me

Hold me close now baby don't leave

Emotions taking over

Something's controlling me

I know this can't be tre

But baby it must be true

What am I feeling?

It's getting stronger

And I can't hold it back for much longer

Although we try to be cool, it's all because of you.

I know this can't be true

But baby it must be true

Don't wanna give into you so easily

But I can't even fight it, you make me so weak

And I can't understand what you doing to me

But I like it

Now in a minute, Ima have to check myself into this psycho

I'm going crazy

I don't know what I'm fighting for

See it's too easy to run from this

And my mind saying I can't really fuck with this

Try to resist but every passion kiss, blow my mind like a terrorist

You can be mine on some forever shit

I'm a treat believe me

Try to be tough but the look on your face it's so delicate

It's something you do when you got me in trance

You got me running and doing shit I ain't used to doing

Thinking bout a chance, maybe a slow dance

Maybe we hold hands, fur coats and France

Go diving on beaches with white diamonds in the sand

Then we hand gliding over Cannes

And then you can be my number one fan

I could be your love in the club for as long as this song last

The way you make me feel got me goin' crazy

Tell me what you doing tonight

I'll be there right away

Take a ride with you all day

You know I'm gonna give you my love

Boy I so glad that you're soon to be mine

Do you wanna spend some time with me?

Don't wanna give into you so easily

But I can't even fight it

You make me so weak

And I can't understand what you're doing to me

But I like it

I like it

I like it.

Would You Mind?

Baby would you mind touching me

Ever so slowly

You're making me quiver

Baby would you mind undressing me

Making me feel sexy

While in the moment

'Cause I'm gonna

Bathe you, play with you, rub you, caress you

Tell how much I've missed you

I just wanna

Touch you, tease you, lick you, please you

Love you, hold you, make love to you

And I'm gonna

Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you

Feel you deep inside me ooh

I just wanna

Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you

Feel you, make you come, too

Baby would you mind kissing me

All over my body

You missed a spot there

Baby would you mind tasting me

It's making me all juicy

Feeling your lips on mine

'Cause I'm gonna
Bathe you, play with you, rub you, caress you
Tell how much I've missed you
I just wanna
Touch you, tease you, lick you, please you
Love you, hold you, make love to you
And I'm gonna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you
Feel you deep inside me ooh
I just wanna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you
Feel you, make you come, too

Baby would you mind coming inside of me

Letting your juces free

Deep in my passion

'Cause I'm gonna
Bathe you, play with you, rub you, caress you
Tell how much I've missed you
I just wanna
Touch you, tease you, lick you, please you
Love you, hold you, make love to you
And I'm gonna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you
Feel you deep inside me ooh
I just wanna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you
Feel you, make you come, too.

b e m y f r i e n d .

Help

I have done it again

I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today

And the worst part is there's no one else to tell

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Ouch

I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found

Yeah I think that I might break

I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me.

I got five on it.

Are you the fire to my blunt?

s a y .

Say that you want me

Say that you'll never leave me

You gotta tell me you need me

Don't let them take your love away

Some say that I am a fool to love you

And some say that I am too dumb to know what's right for me

But only I can live my life, and only I can fill my heartache

I never claim to know everything but I know when your loves away

I can't sleep and I can't eat and I can't live and I can't breathe

So don't make a fool of me, just love me

Say that you want me
Say that you'll never leave me
You gotta tell me you need me
Don't let them take your love away

Now they say that me loving you will hurt me

And they say it's a matter of time before you break my heart

But even when we're far apart

I always feel that you are with me

I hope and pray almost everyday that our love never goes away

Cuz I can't see where I would be without your love all over me

So don't make a fool of me, just love me and say

Say that you want me
Say that you'll never leave me
You gotta tell me you need me
Don't let them take your love away

Baby you're all

All that I need

Need in my life

Right here with me

Say that you want me
Say that you'll never leave me
You gotta tell me you need me
Don't let them take your love away

RAINONME.

I'm so tired of the rain

In my life

And I'm so tired of the strain

And I ain't gon lie bcause

Sometimes I can't sleep at night and

This here just don't seem right and

Sometimes I just wonder why I

Almost let my life go by.

I should've . .

I should've lied

I should've cheated

I should've went out to the club

I should've done it

Maybe I shouldn't have give away all my love

I should've played you

I should've cheated.

'Penny For Your Thoughts'

Can someone tell me where I can find someone like this??

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mn1qxrM1XY0

I'm gone. Goodbye.

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high

It never would've worked out right

We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come here to hold you

Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder

But I know that you'll find another

That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss

Then we could feel the poison set in

Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so

I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right

When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on

So I'm already gone

But I want you to move on

So I'm already gone.

x 3 3 .

I got a thing for the kid . . .

L I F E .

First off, it's mine. Thank You to my parents for making me, but I'm old enough to say IT'S MINE. I've gone through some of the worst struggles ever known to people who know me, but I always made it through; with a smile. I thought the older I became, the easier things would've gotten. I thought maybe God would've given me a break, but apparently, I was wrong. Haven't I learned from my mistakes? Haven't I paid my dues? A smile can go a long way some say. I've had people pick fights with me because they feel like I don't have any kind of trouble in the world just because my smile is so big. Sorry, I was blessed with a smile to light up a room. The pain I've dealt with, I just learned to hide it, but when will I be able to say the smile is real? My tears have become my best friend over the past 10 years, I guess they never want to leave my side. What good friends they are. My best friend tells me things happen to the best of us, I'm glad to know I'm one of the best, but I would be willing to let things happen to someone else for a change. I got teased with the good life for awhile and now I'm back to feeling down and depressed all the time. The suicidal thoughts are no longer there, but I wish I knew how to get rid of this pain.

-when Life gives you lemons, make lemonade, right?

B U T . .

-what if Life only gave me one lemon, what am I suppose to do with that?? Squeeze it into a can of Pepsi??

I just want things to finally be set on track, finally get better, I just want my life to not be falling off sometimes. Do I want it to be perfect? No. But it still doesn't mean it can't get better.

I ' L L W A I T .

Should everyone take risks?

I told a close friend of mine today that there is no such thing as a perfect boyfriend, nor a perfect fck buddy. Life comes at you in crazy ways & even though it might not be EXACTLY what you want but at times you should go for it, see how great or worse the outcome turns out to be. Just TAKE THE RISK, see what happens. What if it means having that excrutiating feeling in your body? The most horrible feeling you can ever feel, next to death? What if it means starting your life over? Was your past worth your present? Will your present be worth your future? Is it worth thinking so much about something that change your life? Would it be worth taking the risk? Whoever said Life was easy, must've never tried to be loved. Is it because they never took a risk?

f r e s h l y , n e w .

I haven't blogged since the month of June & it's now September *lol* but I reread all of my old blogs & I think I want to start up on it again. Let's see if any new ones will be about heartbreaks . .

Not Anymore

This is dedicated to
This, This, This is dedicated to
Mmm, well if your feeling like I’m feeling, then this is dedicated to you

Verse 1:
Well, Ive been the super girlfriend
Let you think that nothing bother me
Like when you go out with your friends
And people bring me back the stories
The stories bout them other girls
Bout this one, and that one, and those three
So when I ask a simple question (Where were you last night?)
You wanna yell and scream and try to flip it on me

Bridge:
No, No, No (No, No)
Is anybody else just fed up?
If you heard it all before, foe, foe (foe, foe)
Then right where you are just get up

Chorus (2X):
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Cause Ive dried my eyes and I realized
I deserve somebody that’ll treat me right
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Because I know my word so you can keep
That drama, I dont want it anymore
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore

Verse 2:
Mmm, no more settling for less
I’m looking for that kind of man
That’s gonna give his best, cause I’m giving my best
A man that wants to cherish this
And knows exactly how to woo me
Not some silly little boy
Who wants my goodies cause he took me to the movies

Bridge:
No, No, No (No, No)
Is anybody else just fed up?
If you heard it all before, foe, foe (foe, foe)
Not Anymore lyrics on
Then right where you are just get up

Chorus (2X):
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Cause Ive dried my eyes and I realized
I deserve somebody that’ll treat me right
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Because I know my word so you can keep
That drama, I don’t want it anymore
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore (walking out the door)
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore (no, not anymore)
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore (not no more, not no more, Im gone)
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore (No)

This is dedicated to(better leave in a day)
This, this, this is dedicated to(wipe the tears from my face)
Mmm, well if you feeling like I’m feeling, then this is dedicated to you (if you feel me say)

Chorus:
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Cause Ive dried my eyes and I realized
I deserve somebody that’ll treat me right
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Somebody say, I don’t want it anymore
I don’t want it anymore
Because I know my word so you can keep
That drama, I don’t want it anymore
Ooh, oh, oh oh, not anymore

What is Love?

It is one of the most difficult questions for the mankind. Centuries have passed by, relationships have bloomed and so has love. But no one can give the proper definition of love. To some Love is friendship set on fire, for others maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it. No matter how you define it or feel it, love is the eternal truth in the history of mankind.

Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life. Always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it. It is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true. Love can occur between two or more individuals. It bonds them and connects them in a unified link of trust, intimacy and interdependence. It enhances the relationship and comforts the soul. Love should be experienced and not just felt. The depth of love can not be measured. Look at the relationship between a mother and a child. The mother loves the child unconditionally and it can not be measured at all. A different dimension can be attained between any relationships with the magic of love. Love can be created. You just need to focus on the goodness of the other person. If this can be done easily, then you can also love easily. And remember we all have some positive aspect in us, no matter how bad our deeds maybe. And as God said LOVE ALL.

Depending on context, love can be of different varieties. Romantic love is a deep, intense and unending. It shared on a very intimate and interpersonal and sexual relationship. The term Platonic love, familial love and religious love are also matter of great affection. It is more of desire, preference and feelings. The meaning of love will change with each different relationship and depends more on its concept of depth, versatility, and complexity. But at times the very existence of love is questioned. Some say it is false and meaningless. It says that it never exist, because there has been many instances of hatred and brutality in relationships. The history of our world has witnessed many such events. There has been hatred between brothers, parents and children, sibling rivalry and spouses have failed each other. Friends have betrayed each other; the son has killed his parents for the throne, the count is endless. Even the modern generation is also facing with such dilemmas everyday. But love is not responsible for that. It is us, the people, who have forgotten the meaning of love and have undertaken such gruesome apathy.

In the past the study of philosophy and religion has done many speculations on the phenomenon of love. But love has always ruled, in music, poetry, paintings, sculptor and literature. Psychology has also done lot of dissection to the essence of love, just like what biology, anthropology and neuroscience has also done to it.

Psychology portrays love as a cognitive phenomenon with a social cause. It is said to have three components in the book of psychology: Intimacy, Commitment, and Passion. Also, in an ancient proverb love is defined as a high form of tolerance. And this view has been accepted and advocated by both philosophers and scholars. Love also includes compatibility. But it is more of journey to the unknown when the concept of compatibility comes into picture. Maybe the person whom we see in front of us, may be least compatible than the person who is miles away. We might talk to each other and portray that we love each other, but practically we do not end up into any relationship. Also in compatibility, the key is to think about the long term successful relationship, not a short journey. We need to understand each other and must always remember that no body is perfect.

Be together, share your joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need. And surely love will blossom to strengthen your relationship with your matter of affection.



Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
--William Shakespeare

convo w| *HiM about my blogs

[HiM]: hows ur blogging going?

[ME]: Going better now that I have a laptop and don't gotta do it thru my phone

[HiM]: is it addicting as people say it is?

[ME]: It can vary on some people cuz I know some people use that and write about their whole day like from the moment they wake up to the minute they go to bed, I on the other hand write about my feelings, usually love stuff and I do love writing there but I guess its harder for me to be addicted to it since I gotta rearrange my words so it won't be so much of an essay but a lil poem

[HiM]: is it easy for u write about love stuff?

[ME]: Umm yeah cuz I can write about it when I'm pissed off cuz of it or when I'm happy there's a never a time where I'm not feeling some type of way bcuz of love so I guess it is

[HiM]: do u ever question yaself on why its easy to write about it but its hard to find it?

[ME]: I know why

[HiM]: ....im waiting

[ME]: Well u can write about wat u want, what ure looking for, how u r, how u see love, but its like there's a love store where u can pick out that perfect person

[HiM]: hmm interesting

[ME]: Its not like there's a love store**

[HiM]: lolol
[HiM]: oh shyt, i dead ass believed there was a love store
[HiM]: lol
[HiM]: i went along wit the reading
[HiM]: :-p

[ME]: So since there's no love store, you can write about that perfect, dream girl/guy that people want
[ME]: Lol I wish there was

[HiM]: there's no such thing as perfect

[ME]: Exactly so that's why its easier to write about it
[ME]: Its like a dream

[HiM]: did u post up what ur mr.right would be like?

[ME]: Yea in my latest one I did

[HiM]: imma have to check dat out to see wut exactly it is dat would turn a heartless princess into a heartful queen

[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: lol

[ME]: Lemme know wat u think :)

[HiM]: sure thing
[HiM]: ok expect me to ask questions as im reading...=)

[ME]: Lol ok

[HiM]: 1st question
[HiM]: lol

[ME]: Yes
[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: umm....everyone has flaws, do u really think its a good idea to accept flaws rather than help change dem?
[HiM]: flaws bring pain,hurt,tears,etc.....

[ME]: A lot of people have a lot of flaws, if I like someone, its despite their flaws, if I change the flaws, then they're not really the person I was attracted to
[ME]: I would change them in a way where I'm not changing the person but making it better for a relationship

[HiM]: not necassarily, cuz u could be attracted to someone and see deep down inside dat dey could be a betta person than who dey are

[ME]: Well what would u consider a flaw
[ME]: Here's an ex I can kinda use
[ME]: The last guy I was with was in a gang, I despiseeee gangs and I think lower of guys who are in gangs so that was a flaw he had but seeing that really was a big part of him, I eventually accepted it

[HiM]: -_-

[ME]: He thought one of my flaws were smoking weed so he told me he aint want me to stop but not to do it in front of him

[HiM]: ok but what happens when those flaws start to affect da relationship?
[HiM]: for example...god forbid u get into problems cuz of his gang stuff

[ME]: Like wat kind of probs

[HiM]: or what if u wit someone dat has a flaw of lying too much? how do u work wit that?

[ME]: That's different cuz I wouldn't wanna be wit someone who's flaw is lying too much

[HiM]: that was my ex's flaw :-(
[HiM]: i use to bag her lying and keepin shyt from me a lot
[HiM]: WHERE ALL DA GOOD GIRLS AT?
[HiM]: lol
[HiM]: j/k

[ME]: Although I guess that was my other ex's flaw and that was worse cuz everytime he spoke, I thought he was lying and that's what made me think even worse shyt and that's suttin u can't really fix, that's something they gotta fix on their own if they see its hurting you
[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: i guess im da type of person dat would accept flaws, but not to a point where its affecting da relationship

[ME]: Like u said no ones perfect so no matter wat u gunna have to accept another persons flaw

[HiM]: some flaws
[HiM]: not all
[HiM]: =)
[HiM]: next subject....
[HiM]: u promise not to cheat, even with urself.....?

[ME]: Lol
[ME]: No not all
[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: does dat mean no masturbation for u lol?
[HiM]: i dont get it

[ME]: Lmao yes

[HiM]: lol

[ME]: Ima tryna show my "perfect guy" that I'm all his and everything that's mine is his, so ima keep my hands to myself so that when he "comes to get what's his" it'll feel better since it was last touched by him

[HiM]: omgoodness

[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: but what if it turns him on to watch u touch yaself? lol

[ME]: Then its acceptable
[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: :-) ok
[HiM]: still analyzin
[HiM]: ok done

[ME]: Lol

[HiM]: i continued skimming through ya blog and itz crazy how last month u was postin stuff about ur hubby
[HiM]: and now itz gone
[HiM]: =/

[ME]: Yupp

[HiM]: im intrigued by ur mentality and i feel like der's so much i can learn and share wit u when it comes to talkin bout da infamous love subject
[HiM]: :-)

[ME]: Just so you know ... I'm gunna blog our "love" convo :)
[ME]: But don't worry I won't use your real name

[HiM]: lmao
[HiM]: yay i secretly made da blog

[ME]: Lmao

Give me my wants & I'll give you my promises.

I want you to always be there.

I promise to always be there for you.

I want you to always make me smile.

I promise to do my best to get you to smile.

I want you to look into my eyes and show me how much you care.

I promise to never stop gazing into your eyes, I'll show everyone how much I care.

I want you to accept all my flaws and see them as greatness.

I promise to show you the greatest and love your flaws.

I want you to never lie, even if it hurts.

I promise to never make it hurt.

I want you to never cheat.

I promise to never cheat, even if it's with myself.

I want you to enjoy my company.

I promise to only share mine.

I want you to laugh at my most stupidest things.

I promise to never think stupid thoughts.

I want you to make me feel as the most happiest girl in the world.

I promise to make you feel like the happiest guy in the world, just for having me.

I want you to tell me it's ok when I feel down.

I promise I'll never feel down because of you.

I want you to not make me your whole world but just your favorite part.

I promise you'll be my whole world.

I want you to be there for me in sickness and in health.

I promise to be the best nurse you've ever had.

I want you to hold my hand outside, even if it's to the corner store.

I promise I'll pretend you're holding my heart.

I want you to be my other half.

I promise you'll make me whole.

I want you to lay beside me, just lay beside me.

I promise I'll cherish every second while you lay next to me.

I want you to appreciate every second spent together.

I promise I'll love every second with you.

I want you to tell me I'm beautiful, on my worst days.

I promise to always stay beautiful just for you.

I want you to never break my heart.

I promise to give you my heart as long as you don't break it.

I want you to be my Prince.

I promise to be your Princess, but treat you like a King.

I want you to never leave my side.

I promise to stay by your side, even when I'm not physically there.

I want you to be all mine.

I promise I'll be all yours.

I want you to love me.

I promise to love you like no other.

what I want, seems like a dream; I hope I never wake up from it, if it can really be this PERFECT.

myheartBLEDS.

No one has ever cut me deep like you did. I wish I never let you get so close to me. Over and over again, my heart bleds for you. Everytime I looked into your eyes, all I saw was safiness, protection, warmth, a best friend, a lover, my LIFETIMEPARTNER. I was healed, but I don't blame you for the pain, I have only myself to blame. I let my wounded heart be reopened, to be hurt even more. Ashamed is all I feel. My purpose for living? To be loved & to give love. That's all I want. And I promise you, I won't ask for anything more.

dontworry; I'll pick up the broken pieces*

now what?

FOR SALE!

I always said "if my heart gets broken, I'm not going to bother with it anymore, as a matter of fact, I'm not even going to want it anymore"





any takers?

fuckyouCUPID.

you have never been on my side. did you always miss bcause you aimed at someone else? or are you really just a huge SCREWUP?






but I went for it anyway. I saw him and decided to just GIVEITASHOT.






and I can't believe how hurt I felt in such a SHORTPERIODOFTIME.






can things GETBETTER?

ONLYTIMECANTELL

feliz un mes

I decided to let him in MYWORLD;MYLIFE;butmostimportantlyMYHEART. Everyday that goes by, I think he's too good to be true, or maybe I'm not good enough for him. But to truly be happy in life, you have to just suck it up and live every second. And so far, there are no regrets. He's the reason for the smile on my face, for my heart skipping a beat. He's the reason I can love again.





*I never understood before, I never knew what love was for, my heart was broke, my head was sore, what a feeling, I didn't believe in destiny, I look up and you're standing next to me, what a feeling, I never saw it happening, I'd given up, I'd given in, I just couldn't take the hurt again, I didn't have the strength to find, what a feeling, let the rain fall, I don't care, I'm yours and suddenly you're mine and it's brighter than sunshine, love will remain a mystery, give me your hand and you will see, your heart is keeping in time in with me*

There's over a billion guys in the world and I just want one.

I just want one guy to love me, one guy for me to truly love, one guy to show me I'm the BEST thing that ever happened to him, one guy to look deep into my eyes and without a single word, I know how crazy he is about me, one guy to show me off to the world, just because he feels I'm the most beautiful girl he's seen, one guy to feel like he's the luckiest guy in the world because he's got me, I just want one guy to love me, one guy for me to truly love.






and if you can make me smile, you've won my heart.

closed heart? open heart? closed heart.

saying ILOVEYOU isn't something you say, it's something you feel, something that's shown.





don't play with my feelings, don't play with my heart, I am a fragile child, be CAUTIOUS*





I've learned from my mistakes, I'm ready to love.





except this time, I won't be letting ANYONE get close to my heart, and if I do . . .






just take my heart with you and never give it back, I won't be able to stand the heartache.

*love is . .

love is the most beautiful thing ANYONE can experience, cherish it; some never get to ever know what it's like to be loved.

I hope the sun never sets.

When I first met you, I was drawn to you. Now that I have you, I'm scared to lose you. Everything's happening so fast and pretty soon, I'll be end up being something you wish you never had.

*the sun don't shine forever; but as long as it's here, we might as well shine together*

I Pinky Promise.

-when I first saw you, I couldn't help but to wonder what kind of man you were.






-& now I know you're the man of my dreams.






-butterflies are even too shy to fly around whenever you're around.






-I feel like you always know just the right words to say, at just the right time.






-I'll show *e v e r y o n e, that I am your perfect girl.






-no matter what we do or where we are, I'll always be more than happy just because I'm with you.






-you said we can have The Notebook kind of love story, as long as I don't forget you.






-& as long as you don't break my heart, I PROMISE you, it'll be you & I against the WORLD.

i CAN get off.

[Verse 1:]
Last night I cried tossed and turned,
woke up with dry eyes,
my mind was racing,
feet were pacing,
Lord, help me,
please tell me what have I gotten into,
Ran my 3 miles to clear my mind,
it always helps me out,
it's my therapy when I'm losing it, which is usually

[Hook:]
I'm on a emotional rollercoaster
Loving you ain't nothing healthy
Loving you was never good for me
But I can't get off.

[Verse 2:]
Yesterday I told myself
I was gonna be okay,
gonna start a new day,
be truly happy,
I was gonna take contol of me
but eventually, reality hit me,
mentally, physically, emotionally,
and I opened my eyes and realized
that I was still being taken for a constant ride

[Hook:]
I'm on a emotional rollercoaster
Loving you ain't nothing healthy
Loving you was never good for me
But I can't get off.

[Bridge:]
So tired of you making love to me,
then disappearing so suddenly,
up and down it goes,
and I'm so tired of you pacifying me,
with promises you know that you'll never keep,
round and round it goes

[Hook:]
I'm on a emotional rollercoaster
Loving you ain't nothing healthy
Loving you was never good for me
But I can't get off.

the bar goes up, the seatbelt detaches & off the ride I go. . .

& it's just the beginning*

did you know 1 + 8 = 9?





remember - prove me wrong & I'll prove you wrong right back




& you feel the same, I don't want to play no games




the heart's been opened once again, hoping it won't get used, abused, broken or taken advantage & just loved the right way; I want you to hold on tight, don't let go
did you know the number 9 is the number of completion?

& it's just the beginning*